Maksat

I got thinking. What are my options ahead? And I came to the conclusion that there aren't too many. Its pretty irritating to realise for sure, that what Naseeruddin Shah says in Iqbal is true. "ज्यादा तर लोग, अपनी पूरी ज़िन्दगी बीता देते हैं यह जाने बगैर कि उनके जीने का मक्सत क्या हैं!"


Option 1: You have come so far and it hasn't hurt you yet. So makes sense to continue research.
Pro: Its a double positive. You'll have two careers. A researcher and a teacher. The odds favour liking both options and in any case definitely the latter.The second option being something that has always seemed like a calling. I have been doing it in one way or the other since the 9th standard. And it is I must say attractive. The changes of getting a position as a research scholar are also extremely good. No immediate financial liability either.
Con: In case it messes up you cannot even say the money is good and that is why I am in it.


Option 2: Get into the career of selling stuff or selling and buying companies selling stuff or a part thereof. Do an MBA.
Pro: Money will not be the issue ever.
Con: I really do not think I'll like selling stuff.

Option 3: Thanks to the education system and also honestly a natural disposition, the mind fits into the bureaucracy. So work for the government.
Pro: Odds favour job satisfaction being good.
Con: Too many people think the same way. The competition will be killing and the subjects that I have had to pass to become a B.Tech will not help me write the civil services exam. So getting the job will be almost impossible.

All other options are not pragmatic to consider at this juncture. Maybe a day will come when I am forced to consider them.

Till now option one and probably teaching seem to be जीने का मक्सत। 100 % conviction is still not there, but I must admit it is the closest to that figure that I have got to in memory. Even more convincing than, probably the feeling as a 7 or 8 year old that my ideal career would be an rail engine driver. The only issue is that though I know getting in would be a pain, option 3 still tugs a bit at the heart strings.